I Will Miss My Kitty

Today, we had to put my cat down. She is the third pet we’ve lost this year. My heart is insanely broken. I can’t handle this.

What I will miss about my Fat Cat:

  • How she said “Hi” every time you walked in the room
  • How she said “Meow” in a mean way every time you picked her up
  • How she stared at dead mice with the look of “what is this?”
  • How she purred contently on your lap
  • How she laid on my pillow next to my head at night
  • How she liked to do homeschool
  • How she liked to sit outside on the porch
  • How she liked the ducks and the lizard
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Trying to Find a New Normal

I’m attempting to go about my routine with only a few tears here and there.

The reality is that there is a space that is left empty that my other pets cannot fill. Because they are not my kitty.

It’s progress that I’m not pushing. I couldn’t even if I wanted to.

Focusing on the good and not the bad.

Focusing on life and not death.

Focusing on the here and now.

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A Cloud of Sadness

A cloud of sadness hangs in the air here at my house without my kitty.

It’s empty. Very, very empty.

It’s very hard to care right now about anything or anyone.

It’s numbing. I have no more tears to shed.

I force myself to eat. To keep moving. Routine helps. Hoping work will help.

Hoping something will help.